cheesecakeprincess

Some people will never have the capability to understand and will never accept that there are people who do. Their own opinion is the only one that counts. Nobody else knows anything. They can't hear anything but white noise and they know it all already. They don't want you, they want the things they forbid themselves. They want everyone but claim they will always be alone or that they don't care about what people think. Look in front of you. You'll finally see the people who are there. The ones worth it. Look in the mirror. Stop lying to yourself and see who you are. Look at what you're doing. Realise who you are hurting. Those peop

Last night I had very vivid and broken dreams. My ex was messaging me and promising to get in contact again, but I don't know why, because I never asked for him to. All my friends were turning up and waking me up and I can't remember what they were doing. I think I've lost a lot of love recently. I'm not sure whether it's people who have stopped loving me, or if the numbness in my chest is stopping me from being capable of loving. There's this constant sinking feeling and it's cold and heavy. I feel stupid for writing all of this here, but I've started doing it, so I may as well finish. I don't care who reads them - on here I don't have peo

So... Right now, my head is spinning, I feel like my brain is a boat on a choppy ocean. My eyes don't want to close and there's a pain in the back of my head and in my heart. I feel like I have done something wrong. I feel like I am useless. Like anything I do is going to be wrong. I want to rush through the next segment of my life and end up at the other side where I can see myself right now. I feel like I'm going crazy. I feel like I need it. I just bashed my head. Ouch. I know that I just need to live through the segment to get to the next one, but what if I'm making mistakes? What if everything I am doing is causing a negative effe